Decades of loving you because of a shadow,…
Supernatural forces that no one knew,….
A love story that existed & still does to this very day….
May the shadows that I made a promise too, see a way…
To protect you & me in every possible way that you awaken everyday,….
I never thought there would be a point in my life where I would mention you,…
And even though I’m this close to being able too say your name I’m still not going too,…
I loved you then & I still love you now & I wish you could see,…
I think I got sent to Earth just for you too stand infront of me,…
So you could reveal your hidden beauty,…
That has totally now warped my sense of reality,…
Your smile & the few of your chosen words have changed & moulded my normality,…
But every time I say this I know how complicated it could become for me & for you,…
This is why this is a story I hope never reaches you,….
I want the whole world to know just not us two,…
I will never tell you who I am & how much you mean to me,…
Because I think this is what true love is,…
A eternally lost prayer a bit of hope & a hidden lost fantasy,…
When I saw you for the first time I started to believe in God,…
Because he is the only one that knows what is true love,…
Whether it is a lot or whether it is not enough, it is all that I have,….
I wish I could go back in time again just to hold your hand,…
At the top of your stairs with your twin sister in the way,…
In your far away where I wish I could’ve stayed forever haunted house,…
I was scared as well but my fear was hidden inside me in a corner of my broken heart like a little mouse,…
I remember your pure white tender radiant skin,…
Honestly your features where mesmerising,….
I can still remember our first kiss,…
I remember your long golden hair & I remember your beauty spot on your face,…
I remember you thinking for some stupid reason that your not good enough,…
I remember the dress you wore when you came to stay at our house & I remember getting told off,…
This is probably the only true love story that will till the end of time exist,…
But will never have a happy ending,…
And that is the twist,…
I can already feel my heartbeat slip & my hands again trembling,….
But that is the story of both of our lives & that’s what’s killing me inside,…
That’s why I’m now trying to write about the pain these emotions are casuing 28 years later,…
I can’t hold it in anymore so I’ve plucked the courgage to put pen to paper,…