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I need too stop telling myself everything will be okay,
I need too embrace all my struggles
One bite at a time, day by day

Because at the end of every 24hr cycle
Every night its the same
I see in the end there isn’t a way & my life is just lame

I’ve been trying
Convincing myself & hiding
Wiping my tears away
And I try too keep on smiling

“Stay positive”
I tell myself
“Things will change one day soon & I will finally hopefully be okay”
“Keep a happy outlook don’t give in & don’t give up”

But in the end I realised after reading a meme from a friend

This constant fake emotional positivity washing
Is actually just fcuking toxic

It’s shredding me inside
Its from myself that I can’t hide

I dunno what too do
And thats the gods honest truth

I wish I could tell you what I want too see
Too help my days pass thru a little bit more peacefully

But its not a material item
A million dollars pounds
A villa or a mansion
Or a un achievable jewel

This from my heart & I swear totally true

Honey the only thing I ever wanted

Was actually YOU