laying in bed thinking
what am I becoming
how much has happened & how much I’m still changing
being diagnosed with a mental health condition,
it was a lot to take in,
I was buzzing, I was crying,
I was silent, I was laughing
2 years have flown by & I’m still shaking, no peace in my mind
I’m still over thinking
so many unanswered questions so many things imploding
I’m not the same guy I used to be, I don’t know what I’m becoming….
I lost some friends & supporters & I gained some too,
thru my toughest times now I know who is true,
& too all my new friends & followers here’s me saying god bless & a huge thank you,
I wish u knew or could see how much I’ve been thru
i could really go on forever,
so much shit I want to say but the most important thing I’ve learnt is too let u guys have peace of mind & say
I’m doing good now I’m kind of finally okay,
improving, evolving, maturing day by day,
this tunnels got a light at the end & I’m just on my way….
picking up pieces of my memories as it all been erased,
it’s like every day I lived was deliberately misplaced,
my mind was wandering freely
I was in a whole new space….
I couldn’t recognise me anymore I felt like a disgrace…
I know where I finally stand though now & that’s anywhere I need to be but with my head held high
my demons have become my strengths, I knew inside the length of this shit is close to an end….
& where one chapter closes another one begins…
so here I am now finally out in the open, back with my pen & paper
I’m the one who’s written this!
more too come soon so watch out on this space!!!!!!
mental health matters so never judge a smiling face!!!!