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Came smiling but left crying
Now I’m sitting here staring into the sky wondering
Am I invisible
How comes no one see’s me
Why is my life so hollow & empty

Is it my scars are they that bad & ugly
Is it the fact I’m diagnosed slightly crazy
Is it the colour of my skin
Or because i speak a foreign language
I feel abandoned like lost luggage
This is all just so much too take in

When they need someone
I’m the first guy they call
When they get too where they wanted to be
I’m the first guy too go

I’m happy alone
I got my laptop & my phone
I like being left too do my own thing
But no one even lets me do that
Thats what I’m struggling too comprehend

Peacefully quietly
I sit in my corner
With pen & paper
I start writing poetry

Sometimes happy ones
Sometimes sad
Sometimes random ones
Sometimes just,…..
Things that after I’ve written them
I feel so relieved & glad

I hope things change in my never ending struggles
Tired of so much but
Pen plus paper equals emotions then words that get stuck in a muddle

Going too end this scribble here now
Hoping that whoever reads this prays for me
That one day someone comes too me crying
Wants too give up hope & wants too stop smiling
Sits next too me
And we meet on a wavelength
We both say fcuk this shit
Were in this together
I’ll stop crying if you do later
Holds my hand so we can forget about the past
And smile together till whenever is forever
And make that moment last,….