Sitting here lonely
feel kinda empty
thinking of a certain girl
but i see my pockets empty
words turn into poems in my head but i don’t wanna say anything
i want what i’m feeling too stop igniting
emotions as big as tides
because there smashing my already messy understanding of normality & leaving me choking & gasping
i just wanna wake up tomorrow in the morning start a new day forgetting today & keep my chin up count my blessings & keep smiling & keep recovering
i’m tired of bouncing off walls & feeling crazy
wat am i supposed too say too a girl that’s so majestically pretty
i’m a fcuking drugged up 80% of the time certi.scitzy.looney
& i would like a few minutes of ur time too tell u my half of a story
words are in my head stuck in my throat & on my tongue but its hard too say anything it just doesn’t come out
deep inside its like im screaming shaking but there’s a smile i put on my face so now no-one is even seeing or understanding wat on a daily basis i’m actually facing
my body is trembling & i’m tired of hiding
i know im broken & thats just the beginning
i look too the sky & beg this too end so i can just be happy
without my family friends & lady who loves me & my insanity
all i can do is pray that this hollow empty darkness ends quickly….